On Loneliness

At the moment I wrote "Loneliness" I was spending a total of three days at home, alone. But really, the entirety of my time at highschool was effective this. Watching all the people I had grown up with (at that point), getting into relationships, breaking up and doing it all over again. During this time, I was also struggling with my sexuality, and finding my gender identify. I was that guy who brought their laptop everywhere, sneaking in games in the more lax classes, and floating through school. I would consider myself an "ok" looking guy,  but not the kind of guy who would have girls throwing themselves at me. I was a loud, impulsive, insensitive. Yet somehow, I would have some people that seemingly had a crush on me. Even now I don't even know who had a crush on me, and I wish I had gotten a clue, all those years ago. But it was because of my character and my cluelessness that affectively hurt those who may have had feelings for me. At the moment I was writing "Loneliness", I wasn't just feeling the loneliness if being in a house by myself, but also the loneliness of not being able to share my emotions, frustrations and problems of being alone, single, and never being in a romantic/significant relationship. I'm not saying I don't value the love of my friends and family. But rather, it is the nature of the loneliness that comes from being single that my friends and family may be unable to understand. A loneliness that alienates you because you don't have significant other, third wheel syndrome if you will.

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